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Botol baru sampai. Beli sbb nk minum berry gen yang mak kirim dr malaysia. Yang uniknya botol ni sebab brand PhD...hehee

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Sukarnya membuat pilihan dan membuat keputusan. Kalau taknak fikir tak boleh. Tak boleh jadi orang yang malas berfikir.

Orang kata, sukar nak buat pilihan dan membuat keputusan hatinya kotor. Mungkin hati saya kotor. Banyaknya dosa saya. Nak menangis je rasa. InsyaAllah saya akan cuba untuk bersihkan.

Ujian itu tak pernah putus bagi hambaNya yang sabar.

Nota : ceramah Prof Muhaya (orang yang berfikir)

Alhamdulillah......harini berjalan dengan lancar dan baik. Syukur sangat2. Walaupun tak dapat nak start culture harini,tapi media preparation dan semua barang2 yg diperlukan masa eksperimen nanti insyaAllah dah cukup. I hope the next trial of transformation would be successful. Dah penat troubleshoot kat mana silap.

Teringat kata2 Prof Muhaya yang diambil dari kata2 seorang pencipta lampu kalau tak silap saya, nama dia saya tak ingat (dulu masa sekolah menengah dok hafal nama2 inventor tak pernah nak masuk dalam otak). Ada orang bertanya....

"Macamana kamu menghadapi setiap kegagalan selama berpuluh-puluh tahun sampai akhirnya berjaya mencipta sebiji mentol yang boleh menyala?"

Tau tak apa dia jawab?

Dia jawab macam ni......

"Saya tak pernah gagal!. Tapi, selama berpuluh-puluh tahun tu saya belajar bermacam-macam cara dan teknik. Teknik yang sesuai untuk menyalakan mentol itu adalah teknik terakhir yang saya belajar."

Dalam hati masa saya dengar tu.....saya cakap kat diri saya, kenapa saya tak pernah nak fikir macam tu?
Itulah cara orang hebat berfikir...kenapa saya tak boleh jadi macam tu? Semua orang nak jadi hebat kan? Semua orang nak tiru gaya orang hebat berfikir....tapi tak semua orang tau caranya kan? Saya pun taktau jugak. Sebab tu saya kena belajar dan terus belajar mencari ilmu. Terima kasih Prof Muhaya kerana telah membuka mata hati saya untuk mengubah cara saya berfikir tentang kehidupan.

Apa yang penting, jangan fikir apa orang kata..fikir apa yang Allah kata.
Setiap dari kita Allah dah tetapkan tugas masing2, ada yang jadi doktor, ada yang jadi guru, ada yang jadi askar ada yang jadi engineer, ada yang jadi kerani, ada yang jadi suri rumah, ada yang jadi driver bas. Jangan tengok apa orang lain buat, tapi tengok pada diri sendiri "apa saya dah buat?".

Semua ni peringatan untuk diri sendiri..jangan lalai jangan lupa apa yang dah kita minta pada Allah.
Inilah masanya kita bersyukur, jalan kan tugas kita atas apa yang kita minta. Sentiasa bersangka baik dengan Allah, Dialah maha bijak dalam setiap perancangan.

Owh, sedikit tambahan sebagai nota:
" Petua untuk jadi kaya, jadi pakar dalam apa yang kita lakukan ".

Terlalu banyak point yang sangat bagus untuk pembinaan kendiri.
Apa yang saya tulis kat atas tu apa yang saya ingat. Ditulis di ofis sambil tunggu masa incubation tamat.
Bila balik saya attach video ni.

Monolog..cepat2 hilangkan stress

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
Rasa nak menjerit je.stress betul harini. Saya gagal lagi nk kawal emosi :-( . Mungkin  inilah fitrah wanita emosi sedikit terganggu bila cik P datang. Selama ni saya tak rasa pun saya ni akan ada simptom pms @ ms. Mungkin Allah nk gantikan sakit dengan emosi tak stabil kot. Dulu2 takde sgt emosi marah2 ni, sakit mengatasi segalanya. Tapi Allah lebih mengetahui....saya perlu sihat untuk jalankan kerja harian, sebab tu mungkin dia gantikan dengan emosi tak stabil. Kebetulan...saya masih dalam proses untuk memotivasikan diri,menjadi kuat emosi utk harungi phd ni berjauhan dengan keluarga. Disebabkan itulah Dia uji saya tang tu pulak. Perancangan Allah adalah yg terbaik, Dia maha mengeathui segalanya.

Asraghfirullahal 'azim....teruknya saya, saya mesti ubah cara saya berfikir. Saya akan beri peluang untuk diri saya cool down dulu. Ya, badan saya pun perlukan masa untuk buat perubahan. Kesian sel2 badan saya..mereka semua terkejut. Ingat! apa pun yg saya lakukan mesti untuk mendapat redha Allah. Kalau saya terus terusan ikut kata hati mesti redha Allah tu jauh. Jangan biarkan hati menjadi raja dalam diri, tapi imanlah selayaknya menjadi raja.

So, jangan sia-siakan masa yang Allah bagi.

Selang beberapa jam....
Sekali lagi dikejutkan dengan ujian lain.....nk menangis je rasa (hobi sy menangis :-P). Akhirnya saya buat keputusan,nk balik rumah. Kalau saya teruskan jugak...mungkin ada lagi kesilapan2 kecil yg tak sepatutnya saya buat akan berlaku lagi. Sebagai perencah bagi ujian harini....dapat pulak berita lain yg mengganggu fikiran.
Sob sob sob...

Syukur, setiap hari dapat ilmu baru

Alhamdulillah, perancangan Allah itu yang terbaik.

Saya dipertemukan dengan seseorang yang sentiasa memberi ilmu baru kepada saya. Dia adalah housemate saya. Terima kasih ya Allah..

Antara ilmu2 baru yang saya dapat:
1. Untuk melatih diri writing menggunakan ayat sendiri. Semasa baca journal, terus buat peta minda / point2 dalam power point.

2. Kena disiplinkan diri untuk menbaca journal setiap hari at least SATU. masyaAllah hebatnya dia, jarang saya jumpa student yang suka dan consistent baca journal macam dia. Pada permulaan memang susah, tapi kena paksa diri buat jugak.

3. Kenali potensi diri. Yang ini saya masih lagi kurang yakin akan apa potensi diri saya. Saya masih lagi tak mengenali diri saya.



Jangan fikir apa orang kata,
Tapi fikir apa Allah kata.

An dvice for me, as a Phd student

Tapi saya tak edit untuk masuk dalam blog ni. hanya copy & paste saje.Jimat masa..hehe

credit to: http://www.nextscientist.com/graduate-school-advice-series-starting-phd

Graduate School Advice Series: 10 Things You Should Know Before Starting A PhD

From a senior PhD student to a starting PhD student, this is the graduate school advice nobody will tall you but that you need to succeed and get your PhD title.

We all join graduate school with rainbows and butterfly ideas in our minds. We will cure cancer, do research in interesting topics, learn a lot, oh! the scientific method, meet smart people.

That’s cute.

Guess what? Life as a PhD student is much different.

Here’s what I discovered during my PhD that was totally different from what I had imagined. This is my graduate school advice for new PhD students.

Graduate School Advice 1: Your #1 Goal Is To Publish Peer Reviewed Articles

Assuming that you want to finish your PhD and become a “doctor”, you have to publish peer reviewed articles. This is the one thing that if you do, you will get your title hands down.

Isn’t the goal to be an expert in your field?

Being an expert without peer reviewed publications equals to being an expert without a PhD. Click to tweet

It sounds materialistic, specially when compared to this romantic idea of doing science for the progress of human knowledge. Sadly it is how the game is played. This is the rule. Publish or perish.

People are trying to change the game with Open Access, Open Data, Open Science, and writing their results in blogs (if you do not have one, start a science blog right now). These are all very needed initiatives that are changing the scientific game. But still, in order to win the game you need publications (in The Netherlands, where I do my PhD, you need 4).

So the best graduate school advice you could get is write, write, and write some more.

Graduate School Advice 2: The Most Difficult Part Is To Stay Motivated

Since a PhD involves diving very deep into a topic, one might expect that learning very complicated stuff would be the hardest part. If you don’t learn fast enough and well enough, you will not finish your PhD. Right? Not true.

The most likely reason for not finishing a PhD, despite not having publications, is … don’t laugh … quitting your PhD. Click to tweet

What can make you quit your PhD?

It happens usually half way a PhD’s duration. You won’t feel you had enough progress. You will be lost in the middle of an ocean of uncertainty. You will still have in front of you a couple of painful years to endure. The alternative of a bigger pay-check in industry will look really tempting at that point.

That period is called the Valley Of Shit or the Phase 3 of PhD Motivation, the “Crisis of Meaning” . Almost every graduate student goes through this existential crisis.

You just need to realise that it happens to everybody and that you can overcome it. Focusing on constant little progress helps more than evaluating if a bigger goal has been achieved.

Something that worked for me was to start your science blog and share with others my experiences (see how a science blog saved my PhD). It helps to put all your troubles in perspective. If you need help starting a science blog check our videotutorial.

Graduate School Advice 3: You’d Better Finish Your PhD Fast

As you see it sucks to quit your PhD half way. Such a waste of time for going away without a PhD tittle.

Do you know what sucks even more? To spend 4, 5, 6 years and not finish your PhD. Ouch!

I have seen this happening to many people and it has to do with two causes.

One, you realise a bit, just a bit, too late that this is not going to work. Seriously, do you really need 5 years to decide you won’t have enough results and papers to defend your thesis?

Please, evaluate every 6 months if you are still on track, if you are going to make it and correct direction if needed.

In a PhD you should track progress and correct direction regularly, don’t wait till it is too late. Click to tweet

Two, after 4 years you are almost there, you have enough data to write those two last articles and the introduction of your thesis. It feels so close and obvious you are going to get your PhD title that you decide to start a postdoc or a new job.
Excellent Wrong choice, Sir!!!!

The stress and pressure to integrate in the new position won’t leave enough room for you to write those last pages. Sure, you are Superman and you are going to write after dinner and during the weekends. I have seen many people failing at this to believe it is a good strategy.

So finish your PhD fast and on time, avoid delaying it. And please, do not start  new job until you really finish your PhD.

Graduate School Advice 4: You Are The Expert In Your Field Of Research

We all regard our supervisors, principal investigators and promotors as a source of infinite knowledge. They are like superhumans.

One common source of frustration is to ask your PhD supervisors for help and realise they know as much as aunt Martha does. If these brilliant guys can’t answer your problems, how are you expected to answer them?

This is why you are here. To answer those questions your bosses cannot answer.

At the end of your PhD you should be the expert on your topic, and not your professor. Click to tweet

You can very well approach your superiors with a problem and propose several solutions. Give arguments for each one. In this context, they might be able to use their scientific instinct, the so called educated guess, to give you a hand.

Graduate School Advice 5: You Won’t Make A (Big) Dent In The Universe

We know you are not in graduate school for the money. Probably you want to contribute to the knowledge of mankind, fix a problem or discover something new. Fair enough.

The sad truth is that for the majority of PhDs, their research will get noticed and used by a handful of other researchers. And that is fine. Most of scientists make big contributions after a lifetime of research, not in a couple years.

The contribution of your PhD to science will be as noticeable as a fart in the middle of a tornado. Click to tweet

Then why do it a PhD in the first place? Well, you need to start somewhere and a PhD can give you the tools and skills necessary for achieving higher scientific goals.

Graduate School Advice 6: Key Skills In Graduate School: Reading, Writing, Networking

In kindergarden you learn to read, write, paint and play with other children. Ah those relaxed days when your only worries were choosing the colour of the crayon or if you were going to play hide and seek.

Graduate school is the kindergarden of scientists. You learn again to read, write and interact with others. Click to tweet

That’s what you need to learn as a PhD school.

• Reading: you need to skim over a scientific paper and in a few seconds decide if you should invest the next 30 minutes reading it in depth. If you do, you should easily find what is the novelty of the research presented, if it can be useful for your work, and how does it compare to what you are doing.
• Writing: in academic papers you need to get to the point. You need to be comprehensive and concise at the same time. You need to be technical yet readable. And if your mother tongue is not English you should work hard not to sound like Google Translate.
• Networking: although some scientists would love to work in a cave away from the rest of the community, you should interact with other peers. Networking can bring you possible collaborators and chances of writing more papers, your new postdoc position, new ideas, or understanding form fellow PhD students that are also going through the Valley of Shit.

Graduate School Advice 7: Pimp Your Online Reputation And Grow Your Academic Footprint

Traditionally scientists would grow their network and get exposure by publishing papers and attending conference. In this new world, a great piece of graduate school advice is to take care of your online presence.

A PhD student should take care of his online reputation from day 1. Click to tweet

While you should still do these things during your PhD, you could make use of some digital tools to be a better scientist and to grow your online reputation, visibility and academic footprint.

There are 3 key online tools that you can use to grow your online presence as a scientist: a science blog, Twitter, and LinkedIn, aka the social media trinity for scientists.

If you use these three tools you will stop being invisible for Google. People will find you and discover what your research is about.

You can use a science blog to share your opinion about your field of research. You can also share materials like posters and presentations. Or even a description of your papers in simple words.

If you what to start a science blog but don’t know how, check check our videotutorial “How to Set Up a Science Blog”.

With Twitter you can connect with fellow scientists, share your news and also discover new research related stuff.

LinkedIn can become your online CV, a place where others can easily see your skills, publications and education.

In Next Scientist we are crazy about the digital world, but do not forget to transfer some of these online relations to the physical world. Try to meet face to face with some of your online buddies, either invite them to visit your group, go for a coffee, or arrange that you will meet in a scientific conference.

Graduate School Advice 8: Time Management Rules From The 4 Hour Workweek That Change The Game

If you haven’t read The 4 Hour Workweek yet, buy it, devour it and apply it to your PhD. It is stuffed with great ideas that you can turn into graduate school advice, it will revolutionise the way you see the world.

• You want to be effective, not just efficient: being efficient at something unimportant is useless. Being effective at finishing important things makes a big difference.
• Pareto’s Law 80/20: focus your efforts in that 20% of tasks that bring 80% of the benefits (like writing papers). Remove the 80% of tasks that only contribute to 20% of the results (like revising constantly your time management system).
• Parkinson’s Law: set tight deadlines, the last minute rush will activate your creativity. If you decide you can do a task in  2 days, guess what? It will take your 2 days to accomplish it. If you would assign 3 hours to it, you would still finish it.
• You are scared, so is everybody else: when talking to other people, giving presentations, applying for that position, it is scary, but everybody else would be scared.
• Have near-impossible goals: these are the goals that motivate you and that are worth working hard and walking the extra mile. When would you work harder? When you have to prepare a poster for a regional meeting or when you have to give a talk at an international conference in New York? I thought so.

Read this post if you want to know more about using The 4 Hour Workweek in your PhD.

Graduate School Advice 9: Deliver Fast And Often, Get Feedback

A great piece of graduate school advice I got when I started was:

At the start of a PhD get some little results fast to boost motivation, don’t go first for big results. Click to tweet

This is great advice because having some small results will a) give you a sense of progress, so your motivation will go up and b) give you something to present (maybe as a poster) and discuss with other scientists.

In your daily work, you should aim at “good enough” and “deliver soon” instead of “perfect delivered in a few more days”. If you deliver intermediate results or a draft of a paper, you have the chance of getting feedback soon and correct your direction if needed.

Bear with me: done is better than perfect.

Don’t wait till you have the perfect figures or till you are not ashamed of the quality of your work. You need to make progress and you need the feedback of your supervisors to do so.

Get rid of your shyness and “move fast, break things, deliver, ship” on a daily basis.

Graduate School Advice 10: Enjoy The Ride

The graduate school advice we shared might sound a bit too harsh. We just want to point out how a PhD really is, so you are not surprised later on. But do not let this discourage you.

Graduate school has many perks that make it a great experience. You will meet interesting people and you will have the chance to explore your own ideas and to be creative.

Remember that you are still a student, so enjoy life like a student. Do not take everything too seriously and make use of your free time.

In some cases you might get a salary or stipend. Isn’t it great to be a student but with money?

For those cases where you don’t get paid or your salary is microscopic, you can easily make a second income in graduate school and enjoy the life of a student.

You have the chance to travel. Get results and present them in conferences. Ask your boss to pay for the trip or apply for a travelling stipend for students. Find collaborators and get them to invite you to visit their lab.

Graduate school is a great time, make good use of your chance of being here.

Welcome :)

Sebenarnya, tak nak pun kembali aktif menulis blog untuk bacaan umum. Tapi....sebab nak keep in touch dengan kawan kena la aktif jugak. Ada sebab kenapa tak nak aktifkan untuk public, sebab nanti saya pun turut aktif mengikuti perkembangan blog2 lain yang mana mengganggu konsentrasi study saya.

Saya tak seperti orang lain yang boleh mengawal segala emosi dan masa yang terbaik untuk setiap perkara. Saya tahu kelemahan saya. Nanti kalau saya dah start fikirkan benda lain, mesti ia menganggu emosi saya keseluruhannya. Biarlah saya dengan cara saya tersendiri. Saya tak sehebat mereka. saya tahu.

Tapi sebab saya sayang kawan saya, saya akan open blog saya untuk MEREKA!

welcome to my blog, with LOVE~~